Friday, June 25, 2010

Get Out of That Pit...my condensed version

If you know me at all, you know I love Beth Moore.  She wrote a great book called, Get Out of That Pit: Straight Talk about God's Deliverance.  It is a great book.  But when I lead the service at the jail I don't have time to read them an entire book.  The last time I taught I felt like this was a lesson they really needed to hear though as it meant a lot to me.  So I condensed the book into one session with my thoughts and verses I thought were important.  So if you aren't a big reader, here is my condensed version. (all verses are from the NLT)

Psalm 40:1-3 "I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry.  He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and mire.  He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along.  He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God."
Pits don't always mean you are in a stronghold of sin.

IDENTIFY THE PITS

"You feel stuck." 
Isaiah 42:18-23 "Oh, how deaf and blind you are toward me!  Why won't you listen?  Why do you refuse to see?  Who in all the world is as blind as my own people, my servant?  Who is as deaf as my messengers?  Who is blind as my chosen people, the servant of the Lord?  You see and understand what is right but refuse to act on it.  You hear, but you don't really listen.  The Lord has magnified his law and made it truly glorious.  Through it he had planned to show the world that he is righteous.  But what a sight his people are, for they have been robbed, enslaved, imprisoned, and trapped.  They are fair game for all and have no one to protect them.  Will not even one of you apply these lessons from the past and see the ruin that awaits you?"

No matter what you do, say or try, you can't seem to get yourself out.  We often give up at this point.

Jeremiah 38:6 "So the official took Jeremiah from his cell and lowered him by ropes into an empty cistern in the prison yard.  It belonged to Malkijah, a member of the royal family.  There was no water in the cistern, but there was a thick later of mud at the bottom, and Jeremiah sank down into it."

I remember during the "Flood of 1994" in Albany, Georgia, my brothers and I rode over to Lake Blackshear.  This once huge lake was empty in the aftermath of destruction.  One of my brothers, with some egging on by his older siblings (that would include me), decided to see how far into the middle of the lake he could walk.  He didn't get far before he sank into a mud pit.  The more he pushed to get out, the more he sunk.  Before long he was in it about to his waist and both arms up past his elbows from where he tried to push himself out.  We ended up pulling him out, but on his own, he was totally stuck.  At some point in our pit though, we realize that we don't have to stay there.

"You can't stand up."
Psalm 69:1-3 "Save me, O God, for the flood waters are up to my neck.  Deeper and deeper I sink into the mire; I can't find a foothold to stand on.  I am in deep water, and the floods overwhelm me.  I am exhausted from crying for help; my throat is parched and dry.  My eyes are swollen with weeping, waiting for my God to help me."

We fight a spiritual battle with a real enemy.  If we want to be victorious we have to stand.
Ephesians 6:11-13 "Put on all of God's armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies and tricks of the Devil.  For we are not fighting against people made of flesh and blood, but against the evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against those mighty powers of darkness who rule this world, and against wicked spirits in the heavenly realms.  Use every piece of God's armor to resist the enemy int he time of evil, so that after the battle you will still be standing firm."
Psalm 40:2b "He set my feet upon a rock and gave me a firm place to stand."

Satan knows that if you are in his pit, you will feel powerless to stand up to him.

"You've lost vision."
Pits tend to be windowless and dark.  Without windows we get convinced we have no where else to go.  After a while we feel too buried in our present state to feel passionate about a promised future.
Ephesians 1:18 "I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the wonderful future he has promised to those he called.  I want you to realize what a rich and glorious inheritance he has given to his people."

HOW DO YOU GET INTO A PIT?

1. You are thrown in.
Genesis 37:23, 24 "So when Joseph arrived, they pulled off his beautiful robe and threw him into the pit.  This pit was normally used to store water, but it was empty at the time."
You can be thrown in by tragedy, by violent crime, by life threatening disease, by financial loss, by rejection, etc, etc.

2. You slip into a pit.
This pit we put ourselves into - only we didn't mean to.  You want to blame someone else, but you can't.   Insanity comes into play when we repeat the same actions, expecting something new, but the results are always the same.  Examples:
You were just going to watch your weight - yet you ended up with an eating disorder.
You meant to only borrow the money - yet ended up bankrupt.
You only meant to get some pain relief - yet ended up addicted to pain medication.
You only meant to have some romance - yet you ended up falling in bed with him.
Psalm 94:18-19 "I cried out, 'I'm slipping!' and your unfailing love, O Lord, supported me.  When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer."

3. You jump into a pit.
You know what you are about to do is wrong, but the desire outweighs common sense and you take the plunge.  But sometimes the pit turns out deeper and the consequences higher than you ever thought.  Makes me think of the current headline news in Atlanta, where the 26 yr old lady drove drunk and killed the Governor's intern.  She chose to drink, but never in a million years did she really think that right now she would be sitting in jail on DUI and murder charges.
Psalm 19:13 "Keep me from deliberate sins! Don't let them control me.  Then I will be free of guilt and innocent of great sin."
We deliberately sin, yet still blame God.. We can't blame Him for our choices.
James 1:13-16 "And remember, no one who wants to do wrong should ever say, 'God is tempting me.' God is never tempted to do wrong, and he never tempts anyone else either.  Temptation comes from the lure of our own evil desires.  These evil desires lead to evil actions, and evil actions lead to death.  So don't be misled, my dear brothers and sisters."

THREE STEPS OUT OF THE PIT

1. Cry out.
(Ps. 106:44,45; Ps. 9:9,12; Ps. 116:1-2; Ps. 3:4)

2. Confess.
I John 1:8-9 "Let the light of God shine all over your sin so the two of you can sort it out and He can heal you."

3. Consent.
God's will IS for you to get out.
I John 5:14-15 "And we can be confident that he will listen to us whenever we ask him for anything in line with his will.  And if we know he is listening when we make our requests, we can be sure that he will give us what we ask for."

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

My thoughts on Validation, Codependency and Insecurity

Apparently I’m a slow learner so God has to tell me stuff over the course of several months and through several different venues to get it to start to sink into my head.

Last week I was meeting with someone and she basically told me that I needed to stop getting my validation from men, specifically from my husband.  That you can never be really happy until you get your validation from God and can stand in front of the mirror, look at yourself and be happy with what you are doing, knowing you have made those choices for yourself and God, and no one else.  I wasn’t sure at first if I agreed with the statement that that is what I was doing.  So I decided to dig a little deeper.

First I looked up the definition of validate. In simple terms it means to prove valid; show or confirm the validity of something.  From Wikepedia… “In common usage, validation is the process of checking if something satisfies a certain criterion. Examples would include checking if a statement is true (validity), if an appliance works as intended, if a computer system is secure, or if computer data are compliant with an open standard.”  So if I’m checking to see if all my choices or what I wear, or how I look, or what I cook, etc, etc satisfies his standard or criteria, then I am looking to him for validation.  One of the dangers in this, is that if you are looking to your spouse to validate you, and they don’t, it is very easy to fall into the trap of finding someone else that will.

Thinking on the term validations made me think of codependency so I looked that up.  From the book, Love is a Choice, comes this definition. “In this interpersonal codependency, the codependent has become so elaborately enmeshed in the other person that the sense of self - personal identity - is severely restricted, crowded out by that other person’s identity and problems. Additionally, codependents can be like vacuum cleaners gone wild, drawing to themselves not just another person, but also chemicals (alcohol or drugs, primarily) or things - money, food, sexuality, work. They struggle relentlessly to fill the great emotional vacuum within themselves.”  And later in that book, “A codependent’s sense of self-worth is tied up in helping others; Christianity says that a person has worth simply because he is a human being created in God’s image. Ones self-worth is separate from the work one does or the service one renders. Codependents have difficulty living balanced lives; they do for others at the neglect of their own well-being and health; Christian faith calls for balanced living and taking care of oneself. Codependent helping is joyless; Christian service brings joy. Codependent are driven by their inner compulsions; Christians are God-directed and can be free from compulsiveness, knowing that God brings the ultimate results.”
Both of these things probably all tie in with insecurity.  A subject that I studied earlier this year through Beth Moore’s book, So Long, Insecurity and then in April by going to her conference on that subject.

I don’t “feel” insecure, or codependent or even that I have set up my husband to be the person to validate my worth.  But the more I’ve thought about it, the more I’m seeing that often my actions belie my feelings.  If one negative comment from him can change my whole attitude, then I'm letting his opinions validate my opinions and feelings.  The lady last week told me that I was placing unrealistic expectations on my husband by seeking his approval and praise for my choices and how I feel and not only would it free him up to let that go, but that guys in general are much more attracted to confident women.  She said make life changes for yourself and for God, not anyone else. To be proud of myself for my changes, not to need someone else's approval to be proud of them.  That gave me a feeling of de je vu since another close friend had nearly said the exact same things to me before.   And Beth Moore had said, “When the average guy see the woman in his life hold her own in the face of intimidation, he is impressed.  At the end of the day, both men and women want to be with someone they can respect.”  So what is confidence? Again from Beth Moore, “Confidence is driven by the certainty of God-given identity and the conviction that nothing can take that identity away.”

More quotes from Beth Moore that really stood out to me on this topic:

“If we knew who we were and what God has conferred upon us, what everybody else thought of us would grow less and less significant.”

“The jagged death trap of thinking that we’re only as valuable as we are sensual and that if no one loves us, at least they could want us is all too familiar to me.”

“Let Him (Christ) tell you you’re worth wanting, loving, even liking, pursuing, fighting for, and yes, beloved, keeping. Whatever you do, don’t reject the only One wholly incapable of rejecting you.”

“We are called to cherish, support, and pray for others, but tying our security to them is a lost cause.”


During my quiet time this morning I was reading II Corinthians 6:8 (NLT). “We serve God whether people honor us or despise us, whether they slander us or praise us.  We are honest, but they call us impostors.” The footnotes in my Life Recovery Bible say, “When we live for God and follow his program for godly living, others will react to us in one of two ways.  Some honor us as genuine and support what we are trying to do; others will malign and dishonor us.  If we are trying to impress others to bolster our self-esteem, we will be devastated when people react negatively.  This may lead us to give up on what we have started.  Paul received his self-esteem from his relationship with God and did not need to be honored by others.  He knew that he could never please everyone anyway.  If we live to please God, we will find that as we build healthy relationships with others we will have joy.”

God has called me first and foremost to be a wife and mother.  It doesn’t always feel like the most significant job, but our jobs are not where we should derive our significance from.  We are created in the image of God, how much more special can you get than that?!  My responsibility is to do what I know God is asking of me, not to crash and burn out trying to attempt to do it all or make everyone happy, even if those things are “good” things or ministry related.  And even though my job is to be the best wife I can be, it doesn’t mean that all my decisions or my worth are to be based on what my husband wants me to do or say or act.  So today I’m dressing myself in dignity and continuing each day to ask God to lead me in every step forward I take.  His “stamp of approval” is the only one that truly matters.  Now if I could just remember that all the time!

“She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs with no fear of the future.” Proverbs 31:25

Geocaching - New Hobby

I think our family has found a new hobby.  It's called geo caching. "Geocaching is a high-tech treasure hunting game played throughout the world by adventure seekers equipped with GPS devices. The basic idea is to locate hidden containers, called geocaches, outdoors and then share your experiences online. Geocaching is enjoyed by people from all age groups, with a strong sense of community and support for the environment."  We have only found two so far, but that was with inadequate equipment.  Downloaded the full version on my iPhone today, will try it out tonight.  JS spent a good portion of yesterday hunting with his uncle and cousins so hopefully he can help us out.  He said he found one yesterday that had a snake, yes a real snake, in it.  Not in the actual container, but in the place where the container was hidden.  Last night we found our second one, but it was tricky. JS even had it in his hands at one point and put it back.  Took us 45 minutes and confirmation from someone that had previously found it to realize that was the cache. The hiders are quite sneaky as we are finding out and you really have to think beyond just looking for a "box."  You also have to get over looking like an idiot to random folks...as yesterday we were wandering all over a grocery store parking lot and the day before up and down the side of a busy highway! LeAnne left for Camp Hope on Sunday, so she hasn't joined in on the fun yet.  Hopefully, she will have as much fun and it will be a great, inexpensive family hobby.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Betty Cannon (obit)

Cannon, Betty
Age: 78
Passed Away: 2010-06-03
Funeral Home: Mathews Funeral Home
Betty M. Cannon ALBANY — The memorial service of Betty M. Cannon, 78, of Albany, GA who died Thursday, June 03, 2010 at her residence, will be conducted Friday at 11:00 A.M. at Mathews Funeral Home. Rev. Tom Newman will officiate. A native of Fulton County, GA, Mrs. Cannon grew up in Decatur and graduated from Decatur High School in 1948. She had resided in Albany since 1962 and was a chemical sales representative with the Cannon Company. Survivors include her husband, Dallas Russell (Rusty) Cannon of Albany, three daughters, Linda Cannon Pipkin and her husband, Jeff and Teresa Cannon Stewart and her husband, Ronnie all of Albany and Patricia Cannon Luke and her husband, Preston of Leesburg, seven grandchildren, Reiley Pipkin of Albany, Dan Stewart of Bogart, GA, Ron Bowyer and his wife, Hannah of Auburn, GA, Chris Bowyer and his wife, Melinda of Gainesville, GA, Dal Spring and his wife, Jennifer and Jenna Luke all of Leesburg, six great-grandchildren, David Bowyer, Christopher Bowyer, Joshua Bowyer, James Bowyer, LeAnne Bowyer and Langston Spring. The family will receive friends from 10:00 A.M. until 11:00 A.M. prior to the service at Mathews Funeral Home. Those desiring may make contributions to Albany Community Hospice, P.O. Box 1828, Albany, GA, 31702. To sign our online registry or to send condolences to the family, you may visit Mathews’ website at www.mathewsfuneralhome.com. Mathews Funeral Home Albany 229/435-5657

Dot-Dot Stewart (Obit)

Stewart, Dorothy J.
Age: 90
Passed Away: 2010-02-04
Funeral Home: Kimbrell-Stern Funeral Directors
Dorothy J. Stewart ALBANY — Dorothy "Dot-Dot" Jenkins Stewart, 90, of Albany, died Thursday, February 4, 2010. Her funeral service will be MONDAY 11 AM at First Baptist Church of Albany. Interment services will be at 2:30 PM at Sumner Cemetery, Sumner, GA in Worth County. The Rev. Dr. Butch Knight will officiate. Mrs. Stewart was born in Sumner, GA and had lived in Albany for many years. She was a member of the First Baptist Church of Albany and worked for 45 years in the nursery at the church. She was preceded in death by her husband Alexander Cleveland Stewart, Jr. Mrs. Stewart is survived by her two sons: Ronnie Stewart and his wife Teresa; Alex Stewart, all of Albany; 4 grandchildren: Dan Stewart, Ron Bowyer, Chris Bowyer, Angie Elliott; 7 great-grandchildren; a brother: Harry Jenkins and his wife Ruby, Indialantic, FL; numerous nieces and nephews. The family will receive friends at Kimbrell-Stern Sunday from 6-7:30 PM. Those desiring may send memorials to Camp Hawkins, c/o First Baptist Church of Albany, 145 Oakland Parkway, Leesburg, GA 31763, or Albany Community Hospice, P.O. Box 1828, Albany, GA 31702. You may sign the online guestbook and share your own memories with the family of Dorothy "Dot-Dot" Jenkins Stewart by visiting Kimbrell-Stern's website at www.kimbrellstern.com. Kimbrell-Stern Funeral Directors Albany 229/883-4152  

Brief catch-up on family events

Boy, does time fly fast!  So far it seems to have been a pretty eventful summer..and it has just started.
We took the kids to Forsyth to meet their grandparents on May 30.  All the grandkids were going down to Albany for a week for the annual "Camp Grandma." 

Monday, May 31, Memorial Day, Ron and I went with Joey and Natalie and their boys to the Renaissance Festival in Atlanta. It was fun and we got some funny pictures.  They had a lot of those cut out things where you put your face in them and take a pic.  It was amazing how clean the house stayed with them gone.  Mainly the fact that there wasn't a zillion cups all over the counter tops when I got home from work each night. 

Then on June 3, Ron's grandmother Cannon died.  She had lung cancer.  His grandmother Stewart died the first week of February.  So, as I had predicted at the beginning of the year, it has definitely become the "year of the grandparents."  We got up in the wee hours of the morning on June 4 and headed to Albany for the funeral.  She was cremated, so that was a new thing for our kids.  She is going to be missed.  She really cared about all of us and I remember her picking out very specific things that she knew we would like for Christmas. 

Came back the next day and that night went to a concert in the park sponsored by our church. 

Sunday, June 6, after church we went with Joey and Natalie to Lake Hartwell.  They have a boat and our families had a blast tubing, boating and swimming together.  We met up with another mutual couple and their boat out there so ended up with two boats and 18 people!

Sunday at church they started a new series called, "No Perfect Families Allowed."  The kids really like our church and we have been attending since October 2009 and it has definitely become our home church.  So on the way home Ron started teasing the kids.  He said, "well guys, I hate to tell you but we are going to have to find a new church."  They both started asking "Why?! Why?!" and he replied, "because we are the perfect family, so we aren't allowed."  Both started loudly arguing why we were NOT the perfect family.  It was so funny listening to all their reasons.  Then Ron laughed and told them, "I guess we get to stay there then." 

Last night Ron and I went on a date night.  We have been doing this much more frequently and loving it!  Last night we had dinner at Chili's.  I like them because they aren't very expensive and they have "guiltless grill" items that are low in fat and calories.  Then I had a free movie ticket so we went and saw Prince of Persia.  Neither of us were real impressed with the movie.  But it was fun just to go....the theater was nearly empty and we had the "love seat."  Ummmm, cozy.  And with no kids we didn't have to bother with popcorn, cokes, candy, etc.  I am so falling in love all over with him!  We have done a lot more as a family together lately too.  Nothing huge per se or wildly exciting (other than the sailing trip) but just some fun quality time together.

Looking forward to what the rest of the summer brings...